Yesterday, Lavella had her first real bath. The boys were in the tub, so I decided to just bathe her in a large bowl in the sink.
Some of the time she thought this was not so fun. Doesn't she look like a fat little Buddha there?(Photos courtesy of Joel.)
After a month long visit, my mom, Rachel and Joel had to go back home. They left a few hours ago, and I've been a little weepy since. It's very hard to be so alone after all of this time with help and companionship. It doesn't help that Greg won't be home until possibly after I go to bed tonight. Making this even worse is the fact that I have no idea when I'll get to see my mom again, or (possibly more importantly) when my children will be able to visit with her again. Living across the ocean is so hard sometimes, and today it just feels tragic.
Trying not to think about all of that right now though, or the hormones will just take over and I'll feel utterly hopeless. I'm trying to focus on happy (or at least peaceful) things. I have some wool that really wants to be spun up into some sock yarn, but my back is hurting too much right now to sit up for that long. Maybe I'll just work on some of my knitting projects.
It's on days like this that I need to guard my credit card, because online shopping feels like just the thing...
Faith,
ReplyDeleteI have to live without Jo, too, and it's hard. But I just think about her all the time and keep her with me. And with a person like her - it works pretty well. It's not as good as having her, but it's better than nothing.
She is bringing joy wherever she is, so at least she's upping the cosmic balance in general, even if it's not in your home. Try and reach out and feel a little of it.
Congtratulations on Lavella.
Rachael (in CA)
FAITH I LOVE YOU!!!
ReplyDeleteHugs! I can't even imagine. You are a really strong person. My parents only live 8 hours away and I still miss them terribly. I am lucky though. They make it a point to see the girls every 2 months at least. Hopefully your family will be able to come back and visit soon! ~A
ReplyDeleteFaith,
ReplyDeleteSorry i haven't written til now.. Congratulations on Lavella! She's gorgeous! and I'm so happy that you have a little girl to even the mix! And Happy Belated Birthday! I can definitely relate to missing my family.. especially my Mom, and its definitely the hardest after saying goodbye. But, I know from talking to your Mom that you guys have great ways of keeping in touch and you're able to really share your lives with eachother and all the kids. I'm praying for you!
Love, Deanna